Here is what I mean by this. Out of all the times I’ve been to a doctor, been visited by a cop, called the cops, been to court, went to school, and so on, I’ve realized lately that I haven’t had a single good experience with any of them.
Doctors either always tell me nothing is wrong when something is wrong or said something was wrong when something wasn’t. Got traumatic brain injury? Oh it’s just a bonk on the head. Got blue balls? Bring em in, doc needs money. The presence of doctors here is so inconsistent with recovery from things like illnesses that the place resembles the stereotypical Sparta-obsessed fascist nation where hospitals don’t exist by design.
Police and courts will give you no luck at all stemming from having absolutely no consistency with how they deal with things whatsoever. I’ve seen child abuse cases where babies are left with behavioral issues that mirror those child rehoming documentaries and the abuser gets two months, while also seeing small cases of assault that lead to two years. I’ve had instances where I ask police about something they can do. “We’ll look into it” they say. Nothing happens. The next thing that happens, they’re blaming me for a dead tree from my yard with a branch that snapped off and fell on a neighbor’s fence, and I go to get sentenced.
My teachers were like these examples too. Did I benefit even once from my teachers? No. Did I benefit from the social environment? No. Did they treat me like Mr. Burns treats Homer? All the time. They didn’t see me as a person, they saw me as a goal. And they would never mind cheating their own rules to achieve it.
And the moment they don’t think they have a job to do regarding you, the same jobs they half-ass anyways, they treat you less like an individual to remember and from time to time treat as an equal human and more like a bird you pushed out of a nest without intent to hear from them again. And I didn’t realize this until recently, that I have no positive experiences with public servants. Makes me almost not want to work.
Anyone else?
I don’t trust cops. Even when they are nice to you they’re not your friend, trust me.
Have a good relationship with doctors. I have met some arrogant doctors but for the most part they’ve treated me with kindness.
Psychiatric doctors on the other hand have never been open to hearing me. As my diagnosis isn’t one that’s officially recognized in my country. And the treatment options aren’t well developed here either. CPTSD.
Thankfully I do have a good relationship with my primary care doctor and a decent understanding of pharmacology myself so he helps me with stuff that he can help me with.
Teachers were hit or miss for me. College professors generally much better as they should treat you like an adult.
I’m also white and was male presenting for most of my life. People’s perception of gender and perception of race will definitely affect how they treat you, unfortunately.