Been in the house for a most of the past couple weeks because the weather is pretty cold. I got no money and no job and it’s been brutal trying to find a job. My sober group doesn’t really talk to me and even after over 90 days alcohol free I still want to drink again because of fomo at bars. I still smoke thc as it makes staying home feel much better. Just in a huge rut and don’t know what to do. Still trying to get an appointment with a therapist and it’s taking forever so here I am venting my dirty laundry on here with no other options. My apologies for posting personal stuff on this page. Just got nowhere else to go for conversation
It’s kind of a cliche, but lifting has changed my life immeasurably for the better. It was something to do during covid instead of just drinking, but now it has become my passion. When I’m not lifting I often read about it which helps keep me occupied. I became motivated to improve my recovery between workouts, which lead me to eat better, sleep better, and is powerful motivation to avoid alcohol too. The physical transformation has been shocking, in a good way. Every time I see old friends, family and coworkers they inevitably do a double take. The money saved from not drinking let me build a home gym. But to start a gym membership costs less than a night out. If you’ve ever considered it I would highly recommend it