Countless people. Well, maybe thousands. Almost nobody ever helped me back, grew beyond me. Why? Because I suffer from so much childhood trauma, stress, I never realised it until last year. Only now am I working my own machinery and getting my house in order. The friends I helped get out of rut, left me in the rut. I was always a broken machine fixing others altruistically. Fixing privacy community since the past 5 years, and what do I get? Death threats, abuse, trolling, witch hunting, ignorance… as I disregarded myself for the greater good.
Society has taught me that Buddha was correct in saying prioritising oneself is not selfish. Society will never help you. It is the very rare handful people that do. It is infinitely worse when you are a cis man. People come crawling to help a woman or child or minority. Men must care about themselves just like other groups do.
Countless people. Well, maybe thousands. Almost nobody ever helped me back, grew beyond me. Why? Because I suffer from so much childhood trauma, stress, I never realised it until last year. Only now am I working my own machinery and getting my house in order. The friends I helped get out of rut, left me in the rut. I was always a broken machine fixing others altruistically. Fixing privacy community since the past 5 years, and what do I get? Death threats, abuse, trolling, witch hunting, ignorance… as I disregarded myself for the greater good.
Society has taught me that Buddha was correct in saying prioritising oneself is not selfish. Society will never help you. It is the very rare handful people that do. It is infinitely worse when you are a cis man. People come crawling to help a woman or child or minority. Men must care about themselves just like other groups do.