I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around? 😔I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.

  • canadianchik@lemm.eeOPEnglish
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    2 days ago

    I wouldn’t rush into another relationship tbh… I wouldn’t be able to… would just hanging out with someone worsen things? I’m stressing because part of me still feels like I’m cheating and I’ve developed this guilty conscience after what happened between him and I. a guy wants to go on a walk with me in nature, I told him I’m going through this and he said take ur time and he gets it but part of me thinks maybe going out will take my mind off of it but another part of me thinks that maybe it will just make me miss him more.

    • The Stoned Hacker@lemmy.world
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      1 day ago

      Definitely hang out with people and try to have fun, it’ll help take your mind off things and begin to remind you who you are outside of the relationship.

      But I’m curious why going on a walk with a friend in nature would be cheating? Hanging out alone with someone of the gender(s) you’re attracted to isn’t cheating. While everyone has different definitions of cheating I think most would agree that violating your partner’s boundaries around sexual, emotional, or romantic intimacy is usually what constitutes cheating; hanging out with a friend in a purely platonic way isn’t cheating and if your partner made you think so that’s a bit of a red flag in my opinion.