I have social anxiety and never been in a relationship and find it very difficult as an average looking dude to meet women. I get bad anxiety when trying to approach a girl I like or find attractive so avoid it. I’m still working on myself so I know that needs to come first. Just looking to see what others did to find a girlfriend with similar difficulties.
Because never having one and not getting any is embarrassing to say and depressing after it’s said
is it that it’s embarrassing, or do you also actually want it?
You probably have anxiety and depression that is being further induced from self medicating. Sober up for a year and then revisit trying to find an SO. You’re going to need to figure out how to be happy with yourself.