Been high nonstop for years. I realize it’s bad for my health. But at least being high feels good.
My future is on a planet becoming increasingly unhabitable, under a government becoming increasingly fascist, doing nothing but working and still not being able to afford rent or food, never traveling, never making real friends much less finding a life partner, water quickly becoming a luxury, and with zero chance of ever retiring.
So why even bother?
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Sounds like they have been.
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Think globally, act locally
As said by Paulie Shore in his environmental documentary Biodome.
If everyone did that we’d be fine as a species, but not enough do. Don’t get so stressed out about the stuff we can’t change to not help change stuff you can.
Our brains don’t care about the scale, it’ll help if you do something no matter how small.
And that gives you the mental bandwidth to care about big shit again.
You have to moderate how many fucks you give or you’ll run out.
If I may, let me rephrase what givesomefucks said:
Do not focus on the “ bigger picture”; it’s not something that can be easily fixed by you. Instead, focus on smaller things within your bubble of life; e.g., been putting off the laundry? Go do it real quick. All of it: wash, dry, fold, and put away. Been meaning to clean your bathroom for a while? Do it. Wash the counters and the mirror; wipe the toilet down (even the back of the base).
If it helps, make a laundry list of things you need to get done or want to do (they don’t all have to be chores). This will help get them out of your head and organized in a way that you can tackle each b item easier. And while you don’t want to pressure yourself to get them all done “right now”, give yourself reasonable deadlines to help hold yourself accountable.
The idea is to build up these little wins; they feel good when they’re complete, and also enrich your life in some way at the same time. It will also help build up your confidence, as you’ll run out of simple stuff and start focusing on slightly more complex things.
To add to this, I find it helpful to think about “what I’m doing today makes tomorrow easier” (or what can I do with these 15 minutes to smooth tomorrows hassles)
This is the best advice I’ve adopted recently for exactly the same perception. Focus on your life, maybe do your best to have a positive impact on the things that worry you. Decrease your engagement with the news cycle - know what’s going on, but only as much as you can handle without it affecting your mental health.
Learn to trust that things will be ok, even if you’re not entirely convinced they will. It may not solve the problems, but your sanity matters too
Have you considered joining a cult?
Yeah make sure it’s not just any standard garden variety cult. It has to be a DEATH cult. Preferably one where there is a cool uniform, like dark hooded robes.
Well there is ALWAYS pessimistic and optimistic view on everything. But I do not mean naive or stupid. I mean optimistic.
Pessimist: “It makes no sense to improve my situation, because I will fail! I will not even try.” Stupid: “Things are not bad. Nothing to change here.” Naive: “Things will fix themselves.” Optimist: “Well things may be bad, but we can, and we will fix them.”
So to answer your concrete questions:
- unhabitable planet: lets vote for green parties, lets push for green energy. Results will not be immediate, but we will get there. Yes it will get hotter a few degrees and will cause some weather problems. But we can fix it.
- fascist government: Vote for better, join movement. Or if things are really extreme in your country. Move to a democracy.
- money problems: you can change your job. Yes it can be very hard, but If you really try (improve your cv, reeducate yourself, change profession) you can get really good jobs. You can learn sales and be really good salesman with very high pay without ever going to college.
- social issues: go out, meet new people, join some class, start a hobby.
Yes I know mentioned things can be awfully hard to achieve. Buy you can achieve them. One by one. As to why bother? You do not have to. But that is the beauty of it. You can try to improve things as many times as you want. It will be hard, but things can be way better.
If nothing else I would bother to fix my life (and the world) just for the sake of curiosity. To see how good can life actually get.
Have you considered you might have better relationships and definitely would have more money if you weren’t high all the time?
Weed isn’t expensive everywhere. I just bought half an oz for $30; even when I’m in the middle of a pain flare and sharing with another heavy vaper that will last at least 4-6 weeks. ~$350/year isn’t changing my life if I don’t spend it on weed.
“Just don’t do drugs lol” is useless for anything other than feeling smug; when people don’t have access to quality mental healthcare and their material living situations suck, a certain amount are going to use drugs to deal with it. People who are having a good time already don’t want to be high or drunk all the time.
Also i think anti drug types tend to picture getting high like in movies or when you’re 16 and giggling, stumbling over the place, and getting everything wrong. I and plenty of people I know smoke while coding, doing woodwork, or similar.
I and plenty of people I know smoke while coding, doing woodwork, or similar.
Ah man, now I want to go sand a nice piece of oak.
Well that’s what I thought when I was young but now I’m old and my life is fucked and the bastards still haven’t killed us all yet.
I’m not saying dont smoking weed or anything but when you’re planning your life it is important to remember the future will probably happen
Anxiety at the prospect of all those things AND being cold, hungry and homeless at the same time. Works a treat.
Environment decay (aka climate change) is gonna force all of us into pockets of extremism where we start killing each other. unless you’re the brave bastard doing a one man miracle decapitation strike that changes the system, Start building community now, lest you be caught alone when the flood comes to your valley on earth.
So being high all the time is remarkably similar to being sober all the time because your brain adjusts to what you throw at it.
I took 10 months off and I just read a lot of books.
Everyone is different though. You should probably try avoiding the internet news and try interacting with people in real life. People are pretty cool when they’re not a vague description of bad behavior from a stranger online who wants you to believe an entire category of people are bad.
The news literally exists to make you anxious at this point because it drives engagement.
The fucked up thing is you can know this and still not be able to stop compulsively reading it.
Get mad. Slowly diying while depressed and high is what they want you to do. They set up the system for you to suffer like this. It gives them power and money and they don’t give two shits about you.
Maybe you can’t win. But you can at least be a massive thorn in their side before you go. If you can’t take them down, setup others to take them down. Maybe not this generation, but the next.
Don’t forget to enjoy your life when you can. Without pain, there is no joy.
Who is “they”? You have to find out for yourself. Start by trying to figure out who is benefiting from your suffering. Keep asking questions. Try to make sense of the world. You’re doing good so far.
As someone who used to be high all the time. I know what worked for me a lot was trying to focus on the best I can do in a given day.
I got into exercise and tried enjoying everyday as if I could be happy with dying that day. I really do try my best to not think about all the crazy things going on just because I realized I can’t help as much. But I do my best to help with things locally. One simple that helped me financially as well as climate related was switching to eating less red meat. Even though some may say it’s not enough as I didn’t go vegan, it still helps reduce some of my carbon output. With the idea of helping where you can and not stressing about what you can’t do, life becomes a lot easier and less stressful while actually making impact.
Do you have anything particular you want to do outside of just being high to feel better? Once I realized how much I like computers and tech, smoking less became easier
Change the things you can change. I’m sure you can change more things than you think.
I don’t know how you can afford rent or food. In my country there is a social safety net where you will be provided housing and food if you can’t afford it. If you don’t have that, try reducing costs somehow, move to lower cost of living, look for a shittier place with less rent, idk as I don’t know the reality of your situation. If you’re from the US, I thought you do have at least limited social safety net?
Traveling is overrated, at least overseas. If you have any way to get around at all, traveling locally can scratch that itch. Also video games do indeed scratch the travel itch.
Making real friends and finding a life partner, both of those things are possible for anyone regardless of circumstances. I don’t know why you think you can’t do it, but I’m pretty sure the reason is just in your head, so something you can change.
Water becoming a luxury and never retiring does not affect you yet, all future things don’t, i.e. it should be irrelevant for your happiness right now. While it is often a good idea to plan for the future, you can leave some things, like the world ending or similar, for future you to deal with and just actually not care about it right now. It’s actually your decision to choose to feel bad right now about future things, I assure you, you can choose to not feel bad about them.
Bro you need therapy
You just do it.
Not sure what drugs you’re doing but I’m about 6 years clean now. One thing that helped me the most was rediscovering my passion for video games. I guess my advice would be to find a hobby or something to focus on and forget about the world for a few hours.
If you want to feel like you’re doing something productive, get involved in your local community. It’s very difficult to fight fascism at a macro level but building bonds and protecting those in your immediate vicinity makes more of a difference than it seems.
