When I was much younger, 22 or so years ago, I had a few suicide attempts. What I’m dealing with now is so, so much worse. Orders of magnitude worse.
I have a cat now, though. Who would take care of my cat? I can’t leave my cat alone.
I have the same thing with my dog. I made an attempt when I was 18, then got a dog at 20. I’m 24 now and still struggle a lot with depression, wishing the attempt had worked and all that, but would never do it now because I can’t imagine leaving my dog all by himself.
Commenting in both of these comments so y’all both see it, but be careful with having a living thing as your safety net. It’s tough to think about, but at some thine they will pass and the ground will fall out from under you. Speaking from experience here.
Edit: Sorry, not trying to darken an already dark topic.
what a shitty thing to say.
edit: replying in both places because you said it twice
Yikes. I don’t know a better way to phrase it, but I sure as hell wish someone had said that to me 10 years ago; before my dog who was my safety net got a brain tumor out of nowhere and had to be put down. What do you do when the only thing that’s keeping you afloat becomes an anchor? Animals are absolutely great and I’m not saying they shouldn’t have them or even use them to help mental health. But having a living thing that is the only thing stopping you from self-harm is dangerous.
I am also alive because cat.
::hugs::
the psychological impact of a cat existing near you never fails to impress.
Plus there is that 100% percent certainty that the cat will start munching on your ears as soon as your pulse stops.
Elmo you are on the inside, you can get places we can’t, you are trusted. Help us change things. I have a list of names.
Elmo might be on the inside….
But his puppet masters are still fisting him all the same. (Sorry for ruining childhoods.)
When an Elmo stands up for himself he gets silenced and they stitch a new one. Younger. Innocent. A naïve Elmo that doesn’t get the same education so he’s easier to control.
Fist Me Elmo! was a b8g seller a5 thevFolsombStreet Faire
yeah. this may be a little better or worse depending on where you are in the planet but its grim.
i’m either wasting away at work all day every day because now bosses act like they own you too much and don’t owe you for what you do so i have no time to live, or i’m a depressed and unemployed wasting away because i have no money to live.
not being able to afford anything for a seemingly infinite amount of meaningless work where you are not respected. that feeling we are just deluxe slaves working though the apocalypse. your worth is calculated based on how good of a slave you are.
capitalism enshitifying not only tech, but just about everything is getting ever more crappy expensive and disposable. we are on this hamster wheel where we need those expensive gadgets and a shitty app for everything, but they are expected to break soon so you need to pay for another and another and so on while contributing to the end of the planet because of it.
the fact we are products/cattle being monetized in all sorts of unhealthy ways and watched 24/7 by our own appliances. they use advanced psychology to control and make us submissive. dont you dare actually trying to improve things or we will use our vast surveillance network to strike you the fuck down.
culture of everyone being hyper individualistic, alienated and self centered (possibly including myself here) contrary to our nature. everyone has less and less friends, everyone is alone and we hate on eachother because of distractions.
…and the internet is now a dopamine trap instead of the beautiful place for connection and knowledge it used to be, but somehow everyone is way more dependent on it for socialization. corporations mediate our relationships and making us alone depressed and angry is more beneficial for them.
capital is literally destroying the planet, poisoning the air we breathe, turning it into an oven, killing massive amounts of life just so a handful of sociopathic people can be god-level powerful over us.
and the sheer amount of death being brought upon us by them for trivial reasons, like a convoluted way someone can have more shitty pieces of paper by murdering people everywhere around the planet.
we cant afford to start families or even be completely financially independent. life is an eternal struggle for meaningless pieces of paper (more like stupid numbers on a shitty bank computer now) and they are always finding new ways to oppress us financially and making us pay more for basic, low tech and low cost necessities that werent a problem for past generations to have.
we know we have no future, no love and no hope. we know we will starve or suffocate to death, but are being played on by the system to turn on eachother instead. the future is looking more and more like apocalypse-techno-dystopia. if it isnt that already.
and nothing we can immediatly do about any of it. people act like i am batshit insane for wanting to throw this shit away and have a revolution to remove our current kings. people immediatly try to excuse them even though their life garbage because our fear of change is probably being weaponized against us, like seemingly every single human instinct. hell, it seems some people dont even want to admit to themselves they are suffering because that would make them lazy leeches or something.
do i even need to keep going? you can tell i woke up on the wrong fucking foot today cant you?
All I can say is you’re not alone and I really wish I could give you a hug right now, friend. :(
I got this favorite literary passage for you though. I think we all ought to hear it a bit more often:
Frodo: I can’t do this, Sam…
Sam: I know! It’s all wrong! By rights we shouldn’t even be here. But we are. It’s like in the great stories Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were, and sometimes you didn’t want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad happened? But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something. Even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn’t. Because they were holding on to something.
Frodo: What are we holding on to, Sam?
Sam : That there’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo. And it’s worth fighting for.
Let’s remember this was written by a fellow who survived the hellish trenches of WW1. A conflict that felt ridiculously pointless for all the bloodshed it caused.
Here we are in our own figurative trenches. We are weathering our own crisis after crisis, wondering if it’s all worth it in the end. “But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow.”
We can’t give up and give in to despair, because friends, family, people we don’t even know, need us to all keep each other going. Our time will come. Don’t give up on exposing this nonsense in the most loving way you can, showing people alternatives, and building the resistance to State and corporate tyranny. One changed mind at a time.
I need to read Lord Of The Rings again. That was beautiful.
Somethings gotta give soon…
i like how it’s some fucking revolation. Like, just look around. poke around on the internet for 10 min. Large, HUGE amounts of people have not been ok for a long time. What’s sad is everyone has their fucking heads too buried in their phones and ipads to notice.
Let’s see my list of anxiety:
- Climate Change
- The rise of fascism (and being in a marginalized group targeted by fascists)
- Inflation eating into my earnings and savings
- The entire marketplace being dominated by broken, fake or scam services and products.
- Pretty severe imposter syndrome and the related feeling that my job mobility is bad because I’m not valuable.
- Anxiety and ADD feeling worse than ever and having little hope to get help treating it.
God damnit. Am I leaving comments from alt accounts in my sleep again?
how would we be?
i’m gonna list a few things:
- war in europe
- genocide in gaza
- everything is a subscription
- appliances are made to fail now
- phone manufacturers blindly follow apple’s horrible decisions
- housing market is going to hell
- general enshittification of every service
- cars are getting worse every day, be it the phasing out of ICEs in favour of EVs that have no hope of lasting even 20 years (that one may be fixed until 2035), the general reliability problems or the ugly designs.
- Windows is actively getting more invasive and even less private, although linux is looking very promising
- the political right is getting more drastic, and it seems to be working for them
edit:
- global warming, i forgor
i am not surprised
And social media completely destroyed the fabric of society
Global warming is kind of a big one to not list…
No no no, our pocket computers becoming too much like another company’s pocket computers definitely is a bigger issue! Get your priorities straight!
You forgot “on track for a 10c rise by the end of the century”
don’t forget all the layoffs happening despite already being overworked, understaffed, and bombarded with RTO propaganda
Well damn, Windows gets invasive and I am DONE
Welcome to Linux. Pick a flavor.
Or all the flavors.
I promise that people who are “not ok” are literally not even thinking about how Windows is getting worse. I’m a sysadmin and if windows was perfect my life would still be equal levels of shit, it’s such a non issue that I’m amused you brought it up
Well the first problem is the question was asked on Musk’s hellsite. No one who still uses that platform is ok.
I’m doing ok and I hope for the best for all the rest of you who are struggling
Let’s see, I’m a month away from being $500 short on rent. Me and my wife separated this year after 3 years. I’m a single parent of a two year old. I was diagnosed with autism and panic disorder last august at the age of 35. My mom died of a fentanyl overdose in 2021, two weeks before my son was born. I’ve been dealing with work burnout after working in food/retail management during Covid, the lockdown, and customers cussing me out over Covid policies and being disgusting in general. I changed jobs, hate the current job, still burnt out. And I’ve had Covid 3 times and my lungs haven’t been the same since the first time.
I’m honestly doing OK. I’ve found my passion for my hobbies again and am feeling confident I can weather this
Sorry to dump all that on you . It’s like therapy.
Seems like you’re focusing the good, more power to ya. I’d say it gets better, but that’s a crapshoot, you can however learn to cope better, be well.
I’m definitely not doing okay considering I’ve got an appointment at the Mayo Clinic in March… but hey, the end of this month will be my six month anniversary of not eating any solid food. So hooray!
Oof…
I’ve been working harder at work for a promotion. I’m not going to get it. I fucking hate work, it’s not particularly hard, it’s just unfulfilling and boring. I dread work every day. I would go somewhere else but hate interviewing because even for 1 job it’s at least 4 interviews and tests. I can’t afford to take a cheaper job. I took today off though so that’s nice.
Enjoy the day off
Just to be a contrarian, I’m doing OK.
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don’t hate my job and make very decent money, pretty stable financially
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have a lovely wife and two healthy young kids
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decent apartment with plans for an energy positive house as the kids are growing
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fun family friendly car, cool gadgets at home, lots of toys to play with, endless entertainment online
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AI is making lots of tasks easier, will only get better
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robots and machines making home tasks easier as well
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live in a country with an acceptable government (that I didn’t vote for, but am OK with), universal Healthcare and strong social safety net
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medicine constantly improving
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china installing solar panels like maniacs, rapidly getting cheaper and more ubiquitous
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Middle East is as fucked as ever, nothing I can do about it
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Russia is always invading neighbors, and this time at least they got a fucking punch in the face
I’ve been much worse in the past.
- Your quality of life is about to be destroyed when billions are made homeless through environmental disaster.
I don’t think so. Climate could be fixed and humans are resilient.
And even if so, nothing I can do to prevent it. Just enjoy the present.
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I am legitimately trying to figure out why the fuck it is I am seemingly the only person in the world who is okay right now.
What the hell are you all doing or going through that is ruining your life, and how can I help alleviate your suffering?
