$130,000 in student loan debt. Cosigned by my family members who can’t afford to pay either. I can’t vent to them about it either.
I have a shit job, basically minimum wage, that I commute 45 minutes to.
I have a Bachelor’s Degree in Game Programming. Guess how many of those jobs are available?
I lack the will to live, but don’t have the strength to kill myself.
Why not just make games on your own and put them on the Google Play store? Build a portfolio
I feel chained to living a way I do not want to live, and if I were to try to escape, I wouldn’t survive long
I have to make plans for a future I don’t want
A future that does not matter to me
This isn’t what I want
But I have no way out
What future are you being forced to plan for?
Go to college, work for the rest of my life, die
What is it you’d rather do? Not being sarcastic, not being an ass, I genuinely want to know what your passions are.
Same problem as most everyone else really, one month away from homelessness.
Modern civilisation is ending and likely cannot be stopped.
Suggestions on a postcard pls.
I moderated r/collapse for about a year. I’ve been aware since 2012 what is coming and it’s only this last year that it’s like a switch was flipped. This summer is going to be brutal and it will only get worse.
I can’t talk about this with my wife, as she is unable to cope with the data and shuts down. None of my friends want to talk about the problems we face and call me a downer. I’ve come to the realization that every day that I’m not baking alive, dying of thirst/hunger, or being killed for my meat is a good day that I should cherish.
So long, and thanks for all the fish
I’ve always been quite minimalistic so saving money has been very easy for me. After getting fired from my last job over speaking out against the abusive management, I haven’t returned to any work. I’ve also moved back home with my parents to not only save money but also take care of them as they get older and work on a relationship that never really was a relationship in the past (I found out in adulthood that I’m ADHD/Autistic).
It’s been some time since I had been abruptly fired from my job and the lawyers regarding that situation have come and gone from my life. Now I’m limbo. I have enough saved money for at least a year, maybe two. My parents have been gently pushing me to find work.
I just don’t want to work. Not anymore. All that’s left are jobs at soulless corporations which suck all individuality, creativity and happiness out of you. I don’t want to deal with people anymore. I barely want to leave the house knowing I have to share the roads with angry people aggressively driving their murder trucks.
I’m not very motivated to find a job at the never ending end of the world. I’m not sure how I can explain this to my parents who act as if the future is stable even when the news they consume everyday tells a story of a world unravelling.
The only thing I could do which would bring meaning to my current life situation is to join a group that focused on meaningful change for the future. Unfortunately, I live in a rural town that designed itself to have soulless suburbs and populated it with old folks who are completely out of touch with reality.
Have you considered remote work? It’s a godsend
I’m completely disinterested in working for another faceless, soulless entity which only focuses on wealth accumulation. I’m also disinterested in meaningless jobs that do nothing to help make the world a better place for the people that come after me.
At this point, I believe that the only way forward is direct action against unjust hierarchy and those who enforce it. As each day passes, I become more firm in that belief.
If I ever come across people who share the same views as me, I would gladly join them. That would give me the meaning and purpose to move forward that a standard job could never provide.
Until money becomes an issue and I’m forced to work to survive, I’d much rather spend my time around my parents and closest friends.
I do recognize that I am super fortunate to be in such a position, the painful majority of the world must work just to barely exist. I feel awful everytime I have to participate in society and enable the misery machine.
There are plenty of people on Lemmy who feel the same way. Why not organize with them?
I need to be involved locally and physically. My ADHD and impatience with the increasingly complicated technology we use today just doesn’t vibe together anymore. A brutal lesson I learned after my trade school courses I was attending went to an online format.
Lemmy’s userbase is just too small and my physical location is a bit too remote to organize anything. I have an alternate lemmy account at another server where I can connect with like-minded people online but that’s as much as I can get out of Lemmy until it’s userbase becomes significant.
I still search for events happening it the big city but time and distance is a factor I have to take in to consideration.
No car?
No car.
I’m “content” where I am now. I understand you want to help in some way but sometimes listening to someone vent helps more than any advice anyone can give.
People like to talk. People like being heard. People like being understood. Being too proactive can easily get in the way of listening sometimes.
Okay. I’m more than happy to listen.
I’ll let you know through a song
Though honestly, it’s more just a sort of blah feeling I’ve been having the past few months now, all day every day. I feel like I’m just going through the motions at all times in life, on auto-pilot, like there’s this sort of cloud hanging over everything and I’m having trouble focusing on anything. Granted, there’s been a string of bad news items almost daily it seems like and anxiety around the big upcoming general election, but I suspect it’s some level of depression. Otherwise, I myself don’t have many of my own problems that are bothering me, it’s more the problems of other people around me that probably give me the most issues, people that I can’t just easily ignore or tell them to piss off.
I remember those lyrics from Earthbound
No way to help, but:
TL;DR - my job sucks. Not enough to actually get sympathy from much of anyone, though.
More info if you want it:
My manager thinks he’s the smartest man alive and is instantly better than everyone else on the team, but he’s literally making every single bad choice he can.
I asked him a question about a specific implementation detail comment on an RFC the other day and he kept reiterating the plan for the overall feature.
Like, bro, I literally know the plan, just tell me whether or not the field is able to be used in the URL now. It was just abundantly clear that he had no idea what the answer was, but chose not to say “I don’t know” and instead just kept reiterating the basic plan.
There was no miscommunication on my part. I’m successfully working on the ticket. He just didn’t want to say “I don’t know”. He opted to waste my time as well as everyone else’s on that call.
This, on top of pay issues (IE, them paying me very late), means I’m actively searching again. This job has been the biggest thorn in my ass for way too long.
It’s hard to get sympathy from people, though, since I also get paid very handsomely. I’ve basically realized I need to just stop mentioning my job with people from my hometown. That’s fine, though, again the main issue really is my manager. Other than him, to be real, my life is amazing.
I feel you and I’m sorry you have to go through all of that. That sucks ass, having to tolerate being put down in a field where you are supposed to be the intellectual authority but are subverted by power hungry jackasses.
I have no meaning in my life. I go to work and I consume and I don’t connect with anyone or help anyone.
The way you can help me is you can tell me some way I can help you.
🤔 Well, we can address the lack of connection with other people, as it’s the easiest to solve. What are your interests, your passions?
That’s the neat part, you can’t. Unless you can fix healthcare, housing/transportation, money etc (even if you could, it wouldn’t be the same as if those were never problems in the first place). That or the old escapist dream of “get me out of here” but I also don’t ever see that happening for a lot of reasons. So again, no.
Even trying to broaden the definition of help… things are probably too personal, too difficult/specific, and maybe even inconsequential. Like the type of thing there just isn’t an answer for.
I don’t think OP was actually proposing that they’d solve our problems. Just wondering what they are (I guess).
I wanted some idea of where the problems lie and from there figure out what an individual could do.
- I have no friends or family.
- I’m only avoiding suicide cos I’ve failed for 20yrs so proving I’m shit at it.
- My last attempt resulted in a nightmare hospital stay where I got barely any fucking care.
- I’m on probation for a crime I don’t remember committing while psychotic on meth.
- Unemployed
- Polydrug addiction cos life is so shit but I have to remain sober.
Who the hell downvoted you and why?
